Will It Ever Be Enough?

As I look back on 2019 and a little further back, I see a lot of accomplishments that I’ve have. They range from running a full marathon to paying off our mortgage 16 years early.

There’s also sponsoring our first World Vision child, Moorosi. Or running my fastest 25K in the Riverbank Run. Or there’s the travel Pam and I have done.

It was a great year. Don’t get me wrong. I’m so happy and excited for the things Pam and I have done in our personal and professional lives.

Yet… there’s something more. There’s this feeling like I’m not doing enough. Or I’m not enough.

Life always feels like there needs to be just a little bit more. Then I’ll have made it. Or then I’ll have everything I’ve ever dreamed of.

Life isn’t that simple.

Great Leaders Look Back

Casting a great vision is required of any leader worth his salt. He has to be able to look forward and KNOW where the organization he is leading will go.

And that’s what we’re told. Great leaders look forward.

Don't be afraid to look back

Unfortunately, this statement is often followed by bad wisdom. After someone tells us how every great leader looks to the future, we are told great leaders never look back.

I can agree with the first part of the statement. Leaders who get things done know they have to have an eye on the future. I take issue with the next part, that leaders can’t look to the past.

I know great leaders must look to the past. For there are many lessons to be learned there.

Why Great Leaders Look Back

George Santayana, a poet and philosopher, said “Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it.”

Tally Your Wins And Defeat Self-Doubt

Earlier this year, I started my leadership podcast. Doing so filled me with self-doubt.

Could I pull this off? Aren’t there enough leadership podcasts out there already?

Who wants to listen to me? I don’t know how to do this…

self-doubt can be overcome

All these thoughts flooded my mind. So much so that I had held off releasing my podcast for years even though I had purchased podcasting equipment years before.

My Blue Yeti microphone was purchased 2 years prior to the launch of the podcast. My webcam was purchased before that.

I had the goods. I didn’t have the confidence.

Tally Your Wins

But as I continued blogging, something began to change. I began to feel more confident. I felt like I could offer something new and different in the podcast world.

Why was this?

Because I began to tally my wins.

Slow Down. You’re Missing Life

We all know being busy isn’t the same as being productive. It’s a lie that’s damaged many great leaders.

There’s another lie many leaders face. It’s the lie that they don’t have enough time to spend with those that matter the most.

That’s a lie from the pit of hell, if you ask me.

We need to be willing to slow down. We’re missing life when we’re going here, there, and everywhere while ignoring the most important parts of life.

Over the past couple of months I’ve realized that my life has been on autopilot going a million miles an hour in directions that I’m not controlling. It’s left me feeling dazed and confused.

Life happened and it’s gotten the best of me.